So one of my supervisors has just scheduled me for two, yeah count them, two full days of trainings!!! One of those days I have two classes; note I'm in Grad school and missing one class is like missing a life time of work, and the other day is a field seminar day!!! It is just a hassle trying to balance school, work, and an internship; then to have to deal with non-empathic people who say oh you just have to deal with it...angers me!!! I'm not going to flip out or panic, I'm going to pray about it and work through it. Life happens!!!
So I didn't think I had room in my heart to feel this way again. I know it is early and when I start feeling this way things end up turning sour. I hope for the sake of romantic men like me everywhere that I'm wrong and that this isn't a pattern for me. You know I've decided not to base this time on past happenings, but to enjoy this time as carefree as the clouds travel through the sky. I decided to take a chance, a risk, and a leap as you will. I've decided to break down my own insecurities and enjoy.
So remember when girls used to play those crazy games like "Slide", "Down By The River", or "Shame, Shame, Shame"? Well I always used to wonder when I was younger what some of these things meant. If you did too feel free to comment and see what you can come up with.
1.) Why did the big fat police officer in Mexico stand at the little girls door?
2.) Why did he grab the little girl by the collar?
3.) There was a game that said "When you put tulips or two lips together" Which one was it? Was it "tulips" or "two lips" that love was forever?
4.) What does ouu sha walla walla mean?
5.) Why was the grandmother sick in bed and why did the doctor check the rhythm of her head?
6.) Why did her head say ding dong when you checked the rhythm? (Grandmother must have been really sick or we were really high)
7.) Why if the girl had twins, would she wrap them up in toilet paper and kick them down the elevator? (That's child abuse)
8.) Why in the world would anybody be rocking a baby in a tree top? (The reason why people shouldn't do acid).
These are just some random thoughts I had today while I was in the file room filing. LOL
1.) Why did the big fat police officer in Mexico stand at the little girls door?
2.) Why did he grab the little girl by the collar?
3.) There was a game that said "When you put tulips or two lips together" Which one was it? Was it "tulips" or "two lips" that love was forever?
4.) What does ouu sha walla walla mean?
5.) Why was the grandmother sick in bed and why did the doctor check the rhythm of her head?
6.) Why did her head say ding dong when you checked the rhythm? (Grandmother must have been really sick or we were really high)
7.) Why if the girl had twins, would she wrap them up in toilet paper and kick them down the elevator? (That's child abuse)
8.) Why in the world would anybody be rocking a baby in a tree top? (The reason why people shouldn't do acid).
These are just some random thoughts I had today while I was in the file room filing. LOL
So I'm sitting at my desk and I'm falling asleep. Sometimes it just gets overwhelming this thing called life. Yeah this thing called life gets so overwhelming that falling asleep maybe your only way out of this reality-based dream induced thing you call your life. I just need to go home, kick off my shoes, and sleep. I guess that's what I need to do huh?
Here is a question I asked on this social website: Is there a difference between loving someone and being in love with someone?
Here's what I answered:
Not the love you have for family, friends, or Philia that brotherly love. No I want to know if there is a difference between loving someone and being in love with someone you're dating or more importantly you're married to. I find hard to believe that you can love someone but not be in love with them. I think that either you love them or you don't. You can't base love or the value of your relationship or marriage on the passion you once felt for the person. Because it can die; it dies because we stop working on it.
If you believe in being "in love" or "Eros" with a person is only grounded on your feelings then yes it does stop, because your feelings will change. We must stop putting the foundations of our love for someone just on our feelings; this is not only dangerous, but it will destroy you or the other person in the end. Marriages have fallen into divorce, separation, and despair because one person loves the other, but no longer has passion or let's be real (sexual chemistry with them)!!! We need to understand that those things will take work and for the two individuals to be patient. Or in a nutshell don't get into something serious with someone if all you know how to do is love with your feelings. Maybe if we try to love one another with the love God shows us, AGAPE love, unconditional love, then maybe just maybe people won't walk around with their hearts broken.
Here's what I answered:
Not the love you have for family, friends, or Philia that brotherly love. No I want to know if there is a difference between loving someone and being in love with someone you're dating or more importantly you're married to. I find hard to believe that you can love someone but not be in love with them. I think that either you love them or you don't. You can't base love or the value of your relationship or marriage on the passion you once felt for the person. Because it can die; it dies because we stop working on it.
If you believe in being "in love" or "Eros" with a person is only grounded on your feelings then yes it does stop, because your feelings will change. We must stop putting the foundations of our love for someone just on our feelings; this is not only dangerous, but it will destroy you or the other person in the end. Marriages have fallen into divorce, separation, and despair because one person loves the other, but no longer has passion or let's be real (sexual chemistry with them)!!! We need to understand that those things will take work and for the two individuals to be patient. Or in a nutshell don't get into something serious with someone if all you know how to do is love with your feelings. Maybe if we try to love one another with the love God shows us, AGAPE love, unconditional love, then maybe just maybe people won't walk around with their hearts broken.
Starting a new relationship can be wonderful! Starting a new relationship can be exciting and give you butterflies in your stomach. Starting a new relationship can also be frustrating and have you on edge.
I think the hardest part I've found in starting a new relationship is learning how the person operates. It can be burdensome to have to learn what makes a person tick especially if the person isn't open with you, themselves, and you have to spend the entire time doing guess work. I just wish that the person you were dating or in a relationship with came with an instruction manual.
I think that's why I made the decision to no longer be apart of drive by dating or dating just to be dating people. I want to date with a purpose and not have to spend time guessing what makes a person angry, what annoys them, when they need their space, when they are playing or when they are serious, what makes them do the things they do, and if they are interested in learning about you.
I think we should just tell people this once we reach a higher level in the relationship, but I guess that wouldn't be fun. LOL
I think the hardest part I've found in starting a new relationship is learning how the person operates. It can be burdensome to have to learn what makes a person tick especially if the person isn't open with you, themselves, and you have to spend the entire time doing guess work. I just wish that the person you were dating or in a relationship with came with an instruction manual.
I think that's why I made the decision to no longer be apart of drive by dating or dating just to be dating people. I want to date with a purpose and not have to spend time guessing what makes a person angry, what annoys them, when they need their space, when they are playing or when they are serious, what makes them do the things they do, and if they are interested in learning about you.
I think we should just tell people this once we reach a higher level in the relationship, but I guess that wouldn't be fun. LOL
So here I am venturing into something new. I can't explain it all right now because everything shouldn't be public knowledge. Let me say though that this fear I'm experiencing is not bad, but bittersweet. I mean it is exciting to be experiencing something new, but the fear also reminds me to take things slow and remember the purpose. I know I'm being vague, but it's my blog and I can do what I want. LOL.
I'm reading this book called "Every Man's Battle" by Stephen Arterburn and Fred Stoeker. Now this book is talking about the battle that I can boldly say either all or most men have fought or they are still fighting. (THE BATTLE WITH SEXUAL INTEGRITY) I mean they don't hold anything back and nothing is taboo! It discusses lust, lust of the eyes, breast, butts, playboy, playboy channel, masturbation, sex before marriage, homosexuality, sexual addictions, adultery, adultery in the mind, etc. I'm serious everything that men face and how you can over come them.
The title of this note or blog session shouldn't be sexual healing, but sexual destruction! Seriously something that was created to be special, powerful, mind-blowing, and yes even blessed; has been the destruction of so many people, so many ministries, and callings, because it has been perverted and people choose to ignore the truth. Sex is not meant for everyone…it was meant for those who are married and committed to one another. The reason I entitled this sexual healing was so we can truly take a look at our own lives as Christians and if we are not walking in sexual purity, to start fresh. It is a struggle, it is a battle, but Christ is stronger!!! We must not allow our flesh to have control over us! We must crucify our flesh daily, capture those impure thoughts and cast them down, and seek God's instruction. We have to be careful what we put into our minds, the places we go, and the people we see!
I don't have all the answers but I can share some scriptures that are helping me in my journey to strive and remain sexually pure. Matthew 5:28, Acts 15:29, 1 Corinthians 6:13, 1 Corinthians 6:18, 1 Peter 4:3, and Hebrews 12:16. So after reading these scriptures and this note/blog tell me what you think. If you want to share scriptures or anything that will help feel free. Most of all I'm not passing judgment on anyone, but I want to put everything out on the table and hopefully save someone's life. And always if you don't know Christ or you are not sure where you're going to spend eternity when you die, please send me a message or hit me up so I can tell you about Jesus Christ. He's the only way to the Father. And Salvation doesn't cost you a thing.
The title of this note or blog session shouldn't be sexual healing, but sexual destruction! Seriously something that was created to be special, powerful, mind-blowing, and yes even blessed; has been the destruction of so many people, so many ministries, and callings, because it has been perverted and people choose to ignore the truth. Sex is not meant for everyone…it was meant for those who are married and committed to one another. The reason I entitled this sexual healing was so we can truly take a look at our own lives as Christians and if we are not walking in sexual purity, to start fresh. It is a struggle, it is a battle, but Christ is stronger!!! We must not allow our flesh to have control over us! We must crucify our flesh daily, capture those impure thoughts and cast them down, and seek God's instruction. We have to be careful what we put into our minds, the places we go, and the people we see!
I don't have all the answers but I can share some scriptures that are helping me in my journey to strive and remain sexually pure. Matthew 5:28, Acts 15:29, 1 Corinthians 6:13, 1 Corinthians 6:18, 1 Peter 4:3, and Hebrews 12:16. So after reading these scriptures and this note/blog tell me what you think. If you want to share scriptures or anything that will help feel free. Most of all I'm not passing judgment on anyone, but I want to put everything out on the table and hopefully save someone's life. And always if you don't know Christ or you are not sure where you're going to spend eternity when you die, please send me a message or hit me up so I can tell you about Jesus Christ. He's the only way to the Father. And Salvation doesn't cost you a thing.
OK so as I've already stated I'm a Christian, but if I can be 100% honest I've not always made the right choices in life. But I've made the decision not to have sex again until I get married. Whoa... I know you guys are like why did he make this public. Well I need to journal about it, because it is a challenge, but also something I need to do for me. It is something I need to do to show the world that despite your past; God can and will forgive you! And that you have free will and can make decisions.
Day 1- (well technically this is the first day I've shared it online lol, but I've been celibate for about two years). It is a difficult journey, especially staying away from books, videos, magazines, and everything else that brings your mind to sex.I love to read, but I know to win this battle against my flesh... I have to stay away from certain books by certain authors. I also love television, but there are some TV shows that I must avoid.I know those reading this are like are you that weak???
The answer is YES!!!!I pray daily... God keep me strong and help me to make the right decisions.Oh I was looking in the dictionary and saw that celibacy has more than one definition. I'm not practicing the definition that says to remain unmarried... no I'm just abstaining from having sexual intercourse until I'm married.
(You can find updates of this journal at joe4christ.blogspot.com)
Day 1- (well technically this is the first day I've shared it online lol, but I've been celibate for about two years). It is a difficult journey, especially staying away from books, videos, magazines, and everything else that brings your mind to sex.I love to read, but I know to win this battle against my flesh... I have to stay away from certain books by certain authors. I also love television, but there are some TV shows that I must avoid.I know those reading this are like are you that weak???
The answer is YES!!!!I pray daily... God keep me strong and help me to make the right decisions.Oh I was looking in the dictionary and saw that celibacy has more than one definition. I'm not practicing the definition that says to remain unmarried... no I'm just abstaining from having sexual intercourse until I'm married.
(You can find updates of this journal at joe4christ.blogspot.com)
Jesus is so real and so good. He made a way out of no way. He provided when all other doors were closed. He has truly provided for me and I'm so grateful to know Him. He loves me and I'm so in love with Jesus Christ.
