So...

So I stand around and I seek the darkness that is trying to consume me. As I lie down on the bed watching TV, I unconsciously wait in absolutely numbed to the fact that the world is collapsing around me. I can't decide how to feel or how to react to this phenomenon.

I'm in a void that can't understand...do you even understand voids? oblivious to the fact that things are kind of falling apart and yet the emptiness I feel about it is well nothing...

I can't feel or at least my brain has convinced my body and emotions that feeling it won't change it. My brain has convinced me that experiencing the emotions and the feelings won't change a thing. So how can I deal with this destruction when I feel nothing?

I sit here listening to Jill Scott on my Ipod, eating a half turkey sandwich and drinking some kool-aid that taste like the person who made it was angry at the sugar and left it out the mix.

I honestly think these feelings were brought up from my late night study session which ended in little sleep, a lot of lecturing in class, and coming home to a non-clean room...which adds to the stress.

Jill Scott is telling me to Let It Be....

So... on a positive note I'm feeling good about a friend.

I can be myself.

I'm smiling

I hope you're smiling ;)

Did I mention I enjoyed Valentine's Day!

So...