I can't find fulfillment than the amount of it I have now. A relationship with Jesus Christ, Friendships, close family relationships, working a job I enjoy for the most part, my own place, and even intimate encounters of the romantic kind. I have these things and overall they make me happy, but an Emptiness always seems to find me.
In Sunday school we were discussing the need to be reassured by God and when are the times we need reassurance. I thoroughly enjoyed the conversation and we discussed not being where we want to be in life; at our age, in relationships, and even financially. It hit me hard because I definitely feel like I should be married and having a wonderful time with my wife; splitting the bills, the chores, family events, traveling, and above all guilt free sex sprinkled with after orgasmic intimacy. I want to be doing therapy, teaching marriage seminars, a booming radio/TV show with my Amongst Friends crew, and a strong relationship with the Lord. In the midst of all this wanting, this desire, I have emptiness.
The Emptiness comes when it wants to and leaves me swimming deep within the deep recesses of my mind. I drown in my conscious pain and suffocate in my subconscious darkness. I know that the wrongs in my life bring out the most of the emptiness' power, but utimately it comes right in the middle of my highest points.
I hate this emptiness and I want to stab at it like a festering wound.
Empty void, empty void, voidless emptiness.
This Emptiness
Joseph is a Licensed Graduate Social Worker in the Washington, DC area. Joseph is the author of the forthcoming book “Love Me Right or Not at All”, A Quick Guide to Loving Yourself and Others the Healthy Way. This book seeks to assist everyone who reads it to love with balance and give love to the right people. Joseph is striving to become an expert in the practice of relationship empowerment. He strives to build healthy, powerful, and well-balanced relationships in the lives of everyone who seeks after the knowledge, values, and skills Joseph has honed over the last ten years. Joseph is an aspiring Marriage and Family Therapist, but to also travel around the nation and hopefully the world, to spread the message that relationships can be simple, yet amazing if you put in the work. Relationships are vital to the human experience and often shape our mindsets, our personalities, and our environments. Knowing this, Joseph works to encourage not only those who believe in his skills, but also works passionately to build his knowledge and skills in the area of relationships to present the best of who he is both personally and professionally.
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