Many Things To Consider

There are many things that I have been thinking about and I have been unable to put them down on paper. I've been unable to put them down online or whatever you call this writing utensil.

It is almost impossible for me to talk about what I have gone through these last few months; ups and definitely some downs. How I've been trying to get a grip on my spiritual walk and truly be committed to my relationship with God. Overcoming my fears and anxiety of taking my licensing exam, so that I can improve my career options and funds; this has been a huge challenge for me. Finally dealing with being temporarily unable to live comfortably in my own home. This and a multitude of other issues has brought me to this place of confusion and slight depressive feelings.

I'm not unhappy, but I'm confused and there are a lot of questions that I need to answer. I know the main cure to this mental and emotional quicksand I'm in is to give my life fully back to God and return to my relationship to Him, but I won't make the move. I sometimes feel so lost and feel so alone. The level of pain I feel when I lose friends has become thicker and heavier lately, but I'm trying to cope with that and to understand that sadly maybe I can't be friends with everyone. I don't really know.

I have many things to consider: relationships, career, possible move, relocation??, when to take the exam, additional job??, stepping down???, and so much more.

Help me...

2 comments:

Unknown said...

I've seen myself in this very situation so many times. And I know that God will provide fresh air, clear understanding, and direct guidance in due time. Keep seeking and I'll keep praying.

Jenesis said...
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