Entry 13-Wikipedia defines sex as being: a process of combining and mixing genetic traits, often resulting in the specialization of organisms into male and female types (or sexes). Ok so this is not what I've been fighting against or thinking about constantly. So I looked up sexual intercourse. Wikipedia defines sexual intercourse in its biological sense, is the act in which the male reproductive organ (in humans and other higher animals) enters the female reproductive tract, called copulation or coitus in other reference. Furthermore Wikipedia gives some functions that sex serves beyond reproduction. Wikipedia states that Sex as exercise burns calories to produce health benefits. Sex relieves stress, boosts the immune system with higher levels of immunoglobulin A, improves cardiovascular health, increases self-esteem, improves intimacy, reduces pain by production of the hormone oxytocin, reduces the risk of prostate cancer, strengthens pelvic muscles, and promotes good sleep. In addition, sex improves the sense of smell and urinary bladder control. However, sexual behavior can be a disease vector. Safe sex is a relevant harm reduction philosophy.
Wow with all these great benefits why is sex so bad? Why am I staying away from these great benefits, besides the obvious risk factors of disease, unwanted pregnancy, and emotional/spiritual scarring that may occur. Why have I decided to wait? Is it because God thinks sex is bad. No God doesn't think sex is bad, He created it and He also said that He would bless it. So that means He will take something good and make it even better??? Wow! But he asks that we wait until we are married before diving into this wonderful gift. This is so you won't have to deal with the disease, the emotional and spiritual scarring, and the suffering that comes along with having sex outside of marriage. *(I do understand that married people deal with the negatives as well, but it maybe because those individuals aren't following the plan God has for those who are married). He desires that you get married and you can freely enjoy the gift of sexual intercourse with your husband or your wife; also you can enjoy the benefits outlined above.
So what is this journal entry all about. Well this is the battle that I'm constantly fighting with. It seems that I can't stop dreaming about sex, thinking about sex, wanting sex, and craving it. The battle has become increasingly difficult readers. Apart of it is that I'm just determined to do things my way, but shoot my mind is constantly clouded with thoughts of holding a beautiful woman in my arms and we enjoying ourselves to every carnal pleasure imaginable (with limits of course). But I know this isn't what God has planned for me and of course I also know that feeling guilty is not something I enjoy.
Sometimes I feel that maybe I shouldn't have announced that I was officially going to be celibate. The battle wasn't this hard when I was celibate-but-not-on-purpose lol, but I guess there is a huge difference between a dry spell (not getting any cause your game is whack lol) and making a decision to honor God's request/desire to wait until I'm married until having sex. Some people (even Christian individuals) have looked at me like I was crazy for deciding to be celibate and I'm like dang family can I get some support lol. (Not everybody though my closest friends have been a huge encouragement to me). I just need to stop playing around with this and truly spend time in prayer, reading my Word, and being careful what I put into my mind (Californication, The L Word, The Tudors, Crash (TV series), and stay away from late night cable (Real Sex and Zane Sex Chronicles). Yeah it's that serious.
1 Corinthians 6:15-20 (King James Version)
15Know ye not that your bodies are the members of Christ? shall I then take the members of Christ, and make them the members of an harlot? God forbid.
16What? know ye not that he which is joined to an harlot is one body? for two, saith he, shall be one flesh.
17But he that is joined unto the Lord is one spirit.
18Flee fornication. Every sin that a man doeth is without the body; but he that committeth fornication sinneth against his own body.
19What? know ye not that your body is the temple of the Holy Ghost which is in you, which ye have of God, and ye are not your own?
20For ye are bought with a price: therefore glorify God in your body, and in your spirit, which are God's.
Hebrews 13:4 (King James Version)
4Marriage is honourable in all, and the bed undefiled: but whoremongers and adulterers God will judge.
Ephesians 5:30-32 (King James Version)
30For we are members of his body, of his flesh, and of his bones.
31For this cause shall a man leave his father and mother, and shall be joined unto his wife, and they two shall be one flesh.
32This is a great mystery: but I speak concerning Christ and the church.
I must fight! I must run!!! I must remain celibate!!!
2 comments:
Good read Joe. Hang in there and keep the faith because when you come out on the other side... you will be like pure gold. Remember, if your flesh has never had it, then there is reason to believe that it won't crave for flesh. I also dealt with the eye gate. (lol) (Men's retreat) When you make it though your character will be tru to the women who God has for you and you can enjoy a lifetime of companionship not just relationship. God Bless you my brother Min. Yates
To my little brother:
Thank you for your honesty! I don't have much to say about the sexual temptations now, since I'm married (although it could still be issue)- but before we got married, I struggled with a sexual sin as well--yes, women do too.
All I can say is keep doing what you're doing. Express yourself, read your Word, pray and hang around others trying to live this life of celibacy as well. I'm here for you.
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