The Unconscious Heart

I wonder my faithful readers if you've ever heard of the unconscious mind? Have you heard the theory that the unconscious mind is what motivates all of our actions or in other words every action has an unconscious motive behind it?

I'll give you an example of what I'm talking about. Imagine a man who is unhappy with his marriage because his wife talks down to him. He is hurt because she talks down to him, but on an unconscious level he stays with her because he unconsciously is attracted to women who put him down. Does this sound crazy or is this quite possible? I think it maybe, but honestly I'm not certain. I do know that I have a theory; not of my mind having unconscious motives, but my heart.

For some reason, whether it is just bad choices, bad luck, or an unconscious motive; I seem to always fall for or choose women who are either unavailable on a commitment level, emotional level, or even a level that is remotely comprehensible. I don't know, but it is my theory that my heart unconsciously melts when a woman that is unattainable crosses my path. And when she does she becomes the center of my attention, even after I find out she may still be in love with her ex, she only likes me one-fourth as much as I may like her, or I'm only friend material, but she doesn't know how to tell me. After all this blogspot, I still get head over hills for them, and I purpose in my heart to make up for whatever I'm lacking or what their ex's may have lacked thereof, but the truth is their heart wants what their heart wants; I on the other hand end up having to move on or wallow in self pity.

Maybe my unconscious heart was created for when I was young and felt that my mother's love was somewhat unavailable to me. Now don't get me wrong my mother loved me and still does; I love my mother with all my heart, but when I was younger I did feel...well that's the past. Wherever this unconscious motive of the cardiovascular type came from, I will say that it needs to pass and I need to get my life together. Cause a broken heart is no fun.

A Poem

A Broken Heart.
It Happens by bigerdan

I've never felt so numb before
I guess I've had enough
It could be a shock as well to realize how shallow our love is..
My love is fading,
I can't feel anything anymore
No, I don't hate him
Deep inside i know i still care..
The special feeling fades
As he revealed his true colors to me
I didn't know how unimportant I am to him,
until that day
I've never felt so embarrassed and little in my whole life
I don't know if there's still a chance for us,
only time will tell
And you know to my surprise, in just one day,
it happens...
just like that...
My love just fades away...