So...I've been afraid to blog or to even journal lately because I have been so depressed. Yeah I stand in the wake of another break up, but this time was different. This time I knew it was coming and I knew there was nothing I could do about it. I can finally say that I almost made it two years with someone, but once again it is with deepest regret that I say we didn't make it. Mostly journal because I don't know how to keep my mouth shut or how to back down. And when you have two people with the same personality or determination to be on top; maybe as a relationship pastor said two stubborn people can't make it. Two people who want to be in control or be the dominate personality can't make it; they clash. I don't think it was fully that reason, but rather my purpose to only know happiness in a relationship for a short while. Or maybe it was fate's way of giving me what I wished for and letting me know that's it. (Be careful what you ask for). I asked for a relationship that could last a year or more and that's what I got.
Journal I've said this before, but I think I have a new resolve. I don't know if I believe in any other type of relationship except for friendships and marriage. The in between for me just brings too many unknowns and too many heartbreaks. This was different than all the others because it wasn't for cheating or because we were unhappy with each other, but it was because...well I really don't know and honestly I don't care anymore. Dating relationships are for the birds and birds don't even date they choose lifelong partners. Someone said that maybe I was just meant to be single and to bring joy and happiness to the relationships of others. I sort of feel that maybe they were right. I'm just done with them for now, but I know every now and then I want to hold a woman in my arms.
Journal I can't describe how hard it is to watch the woman you love or the women you once loved move on to someone else. To see the laugh that you made them do some other man is doing that now. It is hard when it is right in your face and you see it. Bastards lied when they said things get better with time, but the truth is you just get better at ignoring the pain until it is repressed so far and deep in your mind you for get about it. Time is a cruel slave master that will hold you down and beat the life out of you.
Love and being In Love is just as cruel.
So...I'm approaching this game a new way.
So...I won't be the same or fall for the same traps.
So...relationships are for the birds. Birdies have fun.
So...
Joseph is a Licensed Graduate Social Worker in the Washington, DC area. Joseph is the author of the forthcoming book “Love Me Right or Not at All”, A Quick Guide to Loving Yourself and Others the Healthy Way. This book seeks to assist everyone who reads it to love with balance and give love to the right people. Joseph is striving to become an expert in the practice of relationship empowerment. He strives to build healthy, powerful, and well-balanced relationships in the lives of everyone who seeks after the knowledge, values, and skills Joseph has honed over the last ten years. Joseph is an aspiring Marriage and Family Therapist, but to also travel around the nation and hopefully the world, to spread the message that relationships can be simple, yet amazing if you put in the work. Relationships are vital to the human experience and often shape our mindsets, our personalities, and our environments. Knowing this, Joseph works to encourage not only those who believe in his skills, but also works passionately to build his knowledge and skills in the area of relationships to present the best of who he is both personally and professionally.
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