I don't want to be in love again, but I do.

I really am a sucker for romance. I do believe in love and finding your mate and becoming soul mates. I believe in all the power of love making between lovers, the institution and the power of marriage, and the romantic power of beautiful music two lovers will make together. I believe in love and being in love, but I don't know if I want it again.

I will never stop fighting to find my wife, a wife, "the so called one", but I don't want to keep going through the same process. I'm a man who is honest and true; in touch with my emotions, and aware of my desire to share my life and my bed with one woman. I'm so transparent in my need and desire for a woman, but I seem to only find myself rejected and alone. Am I uncomfortable in singleness, no, but I'm honest enough to say that I want to be married and committed.

I guess for me I'm not looking forward to starting over, but I'm not looking forward to living single forever. So I will take the risk, but this time around I'm making it clear that if she's not talking the language I want to hear I'm out. No more trying to convince or persuade. I can't fall back into the same cycle again.

I don't want to be in love again, but I do.

1 comments:

Akshita Jain said...

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