So journal it has been a very long time since you and I have sat and talked. I guess the biggest thing has been that I have been too busy to sit down at my computer and chat with you.
At this moment I have been really focused on my desire to achieve. I think to be very honest with you I have been really obsessed with achieving and truly afraid of failure. It is a real struggle for me when I fail, I guess being told most of my life that I will be nothing but a failure, my nature as an older child (sort of a perfectionist, sort of an overachiever,), and just my desire to prove people wrong. I hate to fail and when it happens I obsess over the failure and forget to get back on the road towards winning.
I don't want to fail and so that leads me to stop trying. I go no where and I end up stuck in this never ending cycle of failure and disappointment. I didn't pass my licensure exam three years ago and did not want to take it ever again. A play I wanted to put on did not go through and I stop doing plays for years. I had writers block for a book I wanted to write and so I trashed it and never went back to it.
You see my point right journal? I hate to fail. However I hate even more to be stagnate. I don't like complaining or feeling like everyone else is moving forward and I'm stuck. I can't afford this type of thinking anymore. I have a wife and a son now. I have to start building a future and a legacy for my children's children. I want to truly make something of myself. I'm tired of struggling or living pay check to pay check. I want more for my family and for myself. I know that I have to make moves. But the fear is very overwhelming.
So journal I can tell you this one thing I despise potty training. I will not go into a long drawn out story, but I will just say this I wish I knew how the first parents managed potty training. Someone has to tell me SOMETHING!
Anyway I hope you enjoy yourself and I hope you enjoyed reading this post!
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Joseph is a Licensed Graduate Social Worker in the Washington, DC area. Joseph is the author of the forthcoming book “Love Me Right or Not at All”, A Quick Guide to Loving Yourself and Others the Healthy Way. This book seeks to assist everyone who reads it to love with balance and give love to the right people. Joseph is striving to become an expert in the practice of relationship empowerment. He strives to build healthy, powerful, and well-balanced relationships in the lives of everyone who seeks after the knowledge, values, and skills Joseph has honed over the last ten years. Joseph is an aspiring Marriage and Family Therapist, but to also travel around the nation and hopefully the world, to spread the message that relationships can be simple, yet amazing if you put in the work. Relationships are vital to the human experience and often shape our mindsets, our personalities, and our environments. Knowing this, Joseph works to encourage not only those who believe in his skills, but also works passionately to build his knowledge and skills in the area of relationships to present the best of who he is both personally and professionally.
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So, I really do hear you about the hate of failure. However, I think part of humility is accepting that we WILL some times fail, and disappoint, and that's OK, because we as humans are not almighty, and we need to let go of our desire to hold a specific image. For example, those of us who hate failure want to keep up this image (whether to ourselves or to others) as the ones who persevere, who follow through, who do whatever it takes, to complete the task and succeed in whatever way you try. But it is OK to fail, it can be humbling, and it can bring us back to the reminder that we came from dust. God can do great things through us, but not if our focus on "not failing" distracts us from focusing on Him!!
So, I really do hear you about the hate of failure. However, I think part of humility is accepting that we WILL some times fail, and disappoint, and that's OK, because we as humans are not almighty, and we need to let go of our desire to hold a specific image. For example, those of us who hate failure want to keep up this image (whether to ourselves or to others) as the ones who persevere, who follow through, who do whatever it takes, to complete the task and succeed in whatever way you try. But it is OK to fail, it can be humbling, and it can bring us back to the reminder that we came from dust. God can do great things through us, but not if our focus on "not failing" distracts us from focusing on Him!!
So, I really do hear you about the hate of failure. However, I think part of humility is accepting that we WILL some times fail, and disappoint, and that's OK, because we as humans are not almighty, and we need to let go of our desire to hold a specific image. For example, those of us who hate failure want to keep up this image (whether to ourselves or to others) as the ones who persevere, who follow through, who do whatever it takes, to complete the task and succeed in whatever way you try. But it is OK to fail, it can be humbling, and it can bring us back to the reminder that we came from dust. God can do great things through us, but not if our focus on "not failing" distracts us from focusing on Him!!
So, I really do hear you about the hate of failure. However, I think part of humility is accepting that we WILL some times fail, and disappoint, and that's OK, because we as humans are not almighty, and we need to let go of our desire to hold a specific image. For example, those of us who hate failure want to keep up this image (whether to ourselves or to others) as the ones who persevere, who follow through, who do whatever it takes, to complete the task and succeed in whatever way you try. But it is OK to fail, it can be humbling, and it can bring us back to the reminder that we came from dust. God can do great things through us, but not if our focus on "not failing" distracts us from focusing on Him!!
So, I really do hear you about the hate of failure. However, I think part of humility is accepting that we WILL some times fail, and disappoint, and that's OK, because we as humans are not almighty, and we need to let go of our desire to hold a specific image. For example, those of us who hate failure want to keep up this image (whether to ourselves or to others) as the ones who persevere, who follow through, who do whatever it takes, to complete the task and succeed in whatever way you try. But it is OK to fail, it can be humbling, and it can bring us back to the reminder that we came from dust. God can do great things through us, but not if our focus on "not failing" distracts us from focusing on Him!!
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