The real world isn't always funny and I'm finding out in this season of the Real World this is true as well. Last night's episode was really sad and Sarah just made me want to change the channel, get out there and fight, and fight for all the children that have been abused in someway. It is a sad thing when the people closets to you hurt you in that way; especially her father.

On a lighter note I've also realized that the Cast of Brooklyn's Real World are a lot funnier and cooler on the After Show then they are on the actual show. I honestly don't think it is them, but how the director and editors are portraying them in the show. The show just seems so depressing and the characters are trying too hard to be REAL that it comes off as fake/depressing. But on the After Show I'm like yeah they're some cool people. I guess it also helps to have some of the cool veterans on the After Show too.

Finally I'm glad Chet got a date, but I hope he doesn't crush her though. Especially if she heard him say he could never marry her lol.

I was sitting on the bus this morning and I begin to wonder why we fight to be accepted?
As I was getting dressed this morning, I looked at myself in the mirror and wondered what people thought of me. I then begin to think about how people always seem to have thoughts about who I am, how I feel, whether I had a good relationship with my mother, my sexual orientation (lol) (heterosexual), and any other thoughts or judgments they may have. I used to really fight to be accepted, but realized that no matter if I watched sports or read comic books; if I laughed all the time or was serious all the time; if I dated women or just stayed by myself; if I had sex or choose celibacy; if I cry or bottle up my emotions; if I played into the gender roles society has prescribed for me or I just be who I am; I realized people will have something to say REGARDLESS!!!! So why even waste my time trying to be what they think I should be? Why should I try and recreate myself to meet their standards? Why should I care?

Deep down I don't want to care, but at the same time I still want to be accepted!!!

I hate being bound by such petty notions. People are fickle creatures.

I posted on Facebook for each of my friends and family to give their thoughts on some of their anxiety when it relates to dating. Here is what they had to say:

Lil sis: for me lack of proper communication always comes up...as well as wen do u kno whether u should stay & try to work things out or wen enuff is jus that....

Future MSW Woman: Real men.. topic 1Men with potential and who strives for excellence.. topic 2Godly Men! topic 3JEALOUS MEN... i run across this a lot... envious might be a better way or intimated..

D. Lady: I think I have a problem attracting selfish men and thats because Im such a giving person and I think they kinda sniff it out...lol..Im a big "lay it out on the table, tell me everything I need to know" type of chick when it comes to the communication part...I dont think there is really a great way to break up with someone...thats something thats inevitably gonna hurt unless u 2 have just grown apart and the feeling is now mutual...but if one party is blind sided with the break up...its gonna hurt regardless..even tho I dont think there's a great way to break up with someone...I think there are classy ways and trashy ways to do it and its ur choice which way u decide...I think everyone should always be classy no matter what...but I cant speak for everyone...OK, this is alot...

Brother C: What I’ve found is that people (myself included) aren’t too quick to let go of their past. We allow past hurts to affect present relationships. We measure the new person in our life by what the last person did to us, and tend to guard our feelings more closely, often to our detriment.

Lady Tina: do i stay or is enough enough? Also I'm noticing more & more that my female friends are giving so much of themselves in relationships but not getting much in return. Why do we continue to accept that?? Got another one! CHEATERS - can you continue a relationship after one person cheats? Can you really forgive them if you decide to take them back? Can you ever trust them again?

So I will try in the next couple of Dating PTSD post to tackle some of these questions. Again I want to thank you all for posting your comments.

So today I got a chance to see my family today. They're some of my college friends who have become my family. I have so much love for them. I got to see my nephew who has to be one of the coolest kids I've ever met...I laugh as I type this because he's just a baby, but I see that he's going to be cool like his parents.

I also got to see my sisters who always keep me laughing. It was so good to see them and just be in their company. I don't think they realize how much I care about them, but I know I want them to be in my life and I want them to be happy. Although one of them is trying to move away and I must not allow that lol.

My sister has a friend that is visiting her; I've met her before, but today I got to know her a little bit and she got to know a lot about me. (Mainly because she was asking me some pretty tough questions and didn't hold anything back lol). It was cool though I didn't mind answering them and I prefer for a person to just be who they are. Things that she were saying to me most men would have took offense to, but I didn't; only one thing that made me take a second look was when she said she didn't date Black men or dark-skinned men. Other than that I thought she was pretty cool and actually learned that she talked and had some interesting things to say. The last time I met her (during my early years in college) she didn't say more than two words to me. I don't know if it was because I was staring at her and it creeped her out LOL or if she just didn't know me, but whatever it was NOW she spoke and flashed that beautiful smile of hers. (I always tell my sister that almost every friend she hangs out with is beautiful/sexy). I've never met anyone who was so outspoken (not a bad thing) but it was like she didn't hold anything back. If she wanted to tell you something she just said it. Most would find it abrasive, but I found it to be refreshing and hilarious (but in small doses lol). She had an interesting view on dating (even comparing men/women compatibility to finding a good handbag or one that would compliment them).

We hung out in DC and I finally got to eat a steak with mashed potatoes. Man I've been craving steak and now I finally got one. It was so good. But I'm sitting in the house right now hungry and I might cook me something to eat before I go to bed.

So... I end this thinking about what the future holds. As I think about this year and really trying to stay in God's will, graduating in May, living on my own, re-entering the dating world (here we go again), and just enjoying life; I hope I don't lose the man that I've become and I become the man that God wants me to be.

So...

I didn't enjoy this episode at all. I mean I appreciate that they are trying to be kind to each other, respect each other, and everything else, but honestly I just need them to get a little more interesting.

I think some of the real worlders on this season aren't trying to create drama in the house, but their drama is real and honestly unfunny. Like it almost makes me feel bad watching it because they are dealing with some serious issues; especially Katelynn and Sarah: Especially Sarah.

I guess for me the real world was more about funny drama that you can laugh at and talk with your friends about it the next day, but this season I don't find any of it funny.

Dang I may really need to stop watching TV.

All I want is you...

I'm sitting here listening to one of my favorite singers.

I'm sitting down listening to a very fine and sexy chocolate sister sing to me.

I love Jill Scott. I love her music and I love the way her lips suductively mouth the lyrics to her very sexy song ALL I.

All she wants to do is make love. She is dreaming about it... it has her so intoxicated that she can't sleep at night.

I know I shouldn't be listening to this, but its mellow, its calming, and its Jill Scott. I can dream can't I lol.

On a real note I do want a good woman in my life. I want a woman that I can marry someday. A woman that will show that she loves me and is willing to accept a good man in her life.

A woman that loves God or at least acknowledges that there is a God.

A beautiful woman.

A woman that thinks she's beautiful.

A confident woman.

Wife material.

But I definitely want a woman who can say to her husband "I've been a goody daddy, but I don't have to be," (Is it hot in here? Did my wife just say that to me).

Or she says "Tease me, please me, Spank Me, Feed Me, you no what I need baby," Is it just me or wouldn't you want your wife to say this to you? Well I would and I would be like ok!!! ;)

I mean if my woman can sing that would be great, but even if she can't all I would need her to do is just say it as sexy as she could and I would be done.

I'm sorry, but I'm just saying Jill Scott was serious when she wrote All I. I mean if I was her husband and she said that to me... Jill Scott my beautiful black queen. Sing to me anytime. I promise I would never have you thinking or feeling like you have Insomnia. You would never feel like your alone Whenever I'm Around. If we were married Celibacy Blues wouldn't be what you were singing, but Crown Royal would be your tune. I Wanna Be Loved too and wow... Bring it back.

I've got my Ipod tuned to my Love Songs playlist once again trying to soothe the wounds this desire I have for this young lady has caused. I'm sorry, but you just don't find rich and beautiful chocolate like that everyday.

Then I saw one in a black dress and I had to confess she was making it difficult to remain single. These unavailable women kill me lol.

Today I was on the train listening to song called You Did Not See by Patrice Reynolds. I love this song so much...anyway I was sitting next to this very gorgeous young lady and she was watching me groove to the song. Ok it was more like put on a show like no one else was on the train. I stopped when I realized she was staring and then I started staring. I smiled and she looked away, but not the quick the crazy guy is looking at me turn, but the yeah you see me don't you turn. I was about to speak, but then I got to thinking (never a good thing) I began to think about my cases, the hospital visit I may have to make, progress notes, school work, and no money. I said I shouldn't even introduce myself, because I can't get anything started with her. I have too much on my plate. By this time she no longer has the interested look on her face and I've lost the nerve to speak.

As I prepare to get off the train I catch her staring at me and I flashed her the sexiest smile I could create. She smiled back and I got off the train. Another one got away.

Jill Scott's The Way came on as I walked into the cold. Man it was cold today and I had to wait 30 mins for my bus. Man I hope I have a woman singing Is it the way you love me baby lol.

I thought about a lot of things, but mainly graduating.

Then a little hope was brought when I came in the house and saw my parental figure talking on the phone to a lady and smiling lol. I was like if dating can work for my pops I know there has to be hope for me lol. We're both pretty good guys who have had some bad luck with women. I'm excited for him and I pray for his continued happiness. I don't think anyone deserves more happiness than he does. The man has struggled all his life. Love you pops.

Ok enough of the mushy stuff.

I end this where I started All I want is you woman. Why won't you come and cause your Love Rain to fall on me? Tease me, please me, spank me, feed me you know what I need baby. ;)

Tonight's episode wasn't all that good. I'm sitting there like is this the Chet, JD, and Ryan show. I ended up feeling bad for Baya because that dance studio made her feel so low. Glad to see she hasn't given up on her dream. But seriously like the one Black person on the show is never on it, except when she's in a towel or drooling over the other guy in the house who I think models???

I mean I can't believe that this season is letting me down so much. Hollywood was crazy from day one and they didn't have the diversity that this cast does. Let me not get down on the show too much, because I do enjoy that the cast isn't a bunch of booze induced racist/sluts, but give me more than what your bringing people.

Or maybe I shouldn't complain about reality TV and should get out there and live life huh? LOL

That's all I have to say about the show.

What do you have to say about tonight's episode?

I can't stop thinking about you!

I feel like my mind desires to be with you more than my heart does.

My mind constantly creates images of our fictional happiness as my heart bleeds because it knows the truth.

I torture myself by dreaming of you knowing that when I wake up I will be alone and even further from my dream of being with you. Reality is torture and the words we shared are etched into the the walls of my heart.

I know I can't have you, but that doesn't make the desire go away.

I try to bury my feelings, I try to destroy my feelings, I try to mask my feelings, I'm trying; though you would never believe me I'm trying my damnedest to eradicate these unshakable feelings I have for you, but these bastards are persistent.

I still function, but occasionally I need to text you to satisfy the urges to feel lost without you.

I know I sound crazy, but what can I do. I still function in life, I still enjoy life, but for a moment I look to what could have been.

I HATE THESE FEELINGS But I hold on to them at the same time.

You're beautiful....

but I have to let you go....

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can I??????????????????

Where's my love rain??? Love Rain please RAIN DOWN ON ME!!! unrequited.....

Please stop the rain!!!!!!!!

Genesis Chapter 1:3-And God said, Let there be light and there was light.

Here is the beginning. The Earth was without form or void. There was no life, no planet to sustain life, and it was darkness. Then the voice of God spoke and from His words the world was created.

Some may feel that this is illogical or a delusion, while others truly believe that the Earth was created, in fact the universe was created from a higher being.

I'm one such person that believes that God created the Earth with just the words spoken from his mouth, but I also can agree that it seems illogical.

Isaiah 55:8 says- For my thoughts are not your thoughts, neither are your ways my ways, saith the Lord.

We as human beings feel that it is illogical for the entire world to be created by just a word, because we can't understand it, we can't put our hands on it, we can't replicate it, we can't use science to explain it, math won't help us solve the equation, and because of this we write the thought of God creating the world off. We write it off as illogical, because we can't explain it.

There are times even in my relationship with Jesus Christ, things that I can't explain. I'll never be able to explain why He loves me despite the way I've chosen to live my life. I can't explain how He wakes us up in the morning or how He continues to love a world that rejects him.

The same way that we (Human Beings) can't explain death, but it exists.

The same way we can't see air, but we know it exists.

The same way we can't explain fully how the human mind operates, nor do we understand the entire capabilities of the mind, but we know it's there.

The same way we can't explain why the body expires, or ages, or gets old, but we know it happens.

It is the same as God giving an illogical command for light to appear out of darkness and it being so.

I believe that it is in our nature as human beings to be able to explain things. Somehow I feel it gives us comfort or a sense of accomplishment, but the unexplainable we run away from or we write it off as fiction. I have to be honest though as much as we may try to make God seem fictional, or a result of delusions created by an unstable mind, I must say that even though we may try God is still God.

I mean just take time and think about it. The sun rises and it sets. The earth spins on it's axis and there are four seasons. Life is created and life is destroyed. Time flows, it moves, it doesn't stand still, and it doesn't wait for anyone. The human body is an amazing machine in a sense, that no one can replicate, but yet there is no God? Someone had to put these things in order, I mean it is too perfect to just happen by accident. The order is perfectly set and if someone wasn't holding these things in place it would all be destroyed.

I'm not even asking for people to believe in God, or in Jesus Christ, honestly I can tell you about Him, and share my walk that I have with Him to you, but at the end of the day you have to choose Him on your own. And when the world ends we can't stand in judgment together, no we have to give an account for our choices, actions, and thoughts to God on our own. So again I'm not trying to get you to believe what I believe, but to have you think outside the realm of human understanding.

OK you don't believe in miracles, but does it mean they don't happen. I even believe that a man being able to perform open heart surgery or brain surgery is a miracle. And someone had to give that man the understanding to even tackle something as complex as the heart and brain.

To the ones who believe in the Big Bang, well someone had to send that huge explosion or create a "primordial hot and dense initial condition at some finite time in the past." Someone had to create primordial matter, someone who isn't bound by finite principles, but is infinite and unbound by logic.

To the ones who believe in evolution, well someone had to create the apes or the primordial ooze that man and beast spawned from. Is it truly possible for inanimate matter to create life? If this is true than someone had to Command that matter to begin to move. Come on you must agree with me or at least consider that we can't explain how life came from primordial ooze. So if we can't explain how the beginning of life on Earth came from ooze, than why is it so impossible for us not to be able to explain God????

I just believe that God set in motion and put in order the things of yesterday, today, and the future. He was in the beginning, He is with us now, and He will be there in the future. He is God the Father, God the Son, and God the Holy Ghost. (3-Past-Present-Future, Father, Son, Holy Ghost, Man is Mind, Body, and Soul, there's a past, present, and future, birth, life, and death, do you see where I'm going with this? LOL)

OK back to the topic at hand... We have tried to trace everything back to the past, but even science is unable to fully explain how it all got started. And I do understand that you should try and bring sound, logical explanations to the table of debate, or in other words bring proof, but if I can be human and show my fallible nature, I can honestly say I can't explain logically how an infallible being exists. I may not be able to explain it, but I know He does.

Hopefully if you are unable to believe in God, I hope at least that reading this post allowed you to think outside the box or to consider that everything can't be explained.

John 3:16- For God so loved the world He gave His only Son. That whoever believes in Him shall not perish, but will have everlasting life. (I don't understand this, but I'm glad He did!!!)

I layed in the bed and I was pondering what we loved more- to be loving or loving the feeling of being loved. I have no idea what made my mind decide to think about this, but I wonder if it is in our natures to love or in our natures to be loved. Man I'm sitting at my computer unable to truly write what I want, but I guess I'm asking if love is more of an action or is it more of a feeling.

Feelings are truly very dangerous creatures. They will have you in the most uncomfortable situations, stay with the wrong person, desire someone who doesn't want you, and your feelings will definitely have you thinking you're in love.

I'm convinced that Love is 80% action and 20% feeling, but we have it backwards and love is 80% feeling and 20% action. Honestly I think that we don't put enough actions, well positive actions behind our love, and that's why we don't always succeed at love. It is never safe to place all your cards on feelings; especially if you want to know if a person truly loves you, or if you truly love someone.

I know some might say because I've been burned in the game of love that I'm a little cynical, but it isn't that; instead I'm convinced that we have to approach love more from an action point-of-view and not solely from a feeling perspective. Feelings change all the time and they're not always stable.

I guess I'm writing this so that we can begin loving people with our actions and truly try to grasp what loving someone really is about.

The Bible says Love is patient and kind. Love is not jealous or boastful or proud or rude. It does not demand its own way. It is not irritable, and it keeps no record of being wronged. It does not rejoice about injustice but rejoices whenever the truth wins out. Love never gives up, never loses faith, is always hopeful, and endures through every circumstance. (I Corinthians 13:4-7). Those are some heavy actions associated with Love.

I dated a girl awhile back and the one thing that I truly appreciated from our tumultuous relationship, it was her belief that to say that you love someone means that you would be willing to give your life for them.

Now this changed the way I looked at opening my mouth and telling a girl that I loved her. At first I thought it was just her way of saying that I shouldn't say I loved her so fast, but then when I thought about what Jesus did for the world, (gave his life for us because he loved us) I didn't think that she was crazy. Now I'm not quick to say I love someone I'm dating, or in a relationship with, but I think about what I'm willing to sacrifice for them.

In a nutshell I just don't want to experience the feeling of love. I don't want to be in another serious relationship and just have the feeling that this woman loves me, no I want to know that she loves me. I want to experience the love, I want to breathe her love, I want to see it, touch it, hear it, taste it, and I want her to know that my love will do the same for her. I don't know if there's a such thing as being in love (an earlier post), but I do know that I'm a firm believer that love is action and not just words or feelings.

I hope that as you read this post that it brought you to a place of evaluation. To evaluate whether or not your love is in it's purest form. Or in other words that the love your experiencing is not just feeling, but action.

I'm hoping that someone is out there feeling me.

Gender Identity Disorder or The Crisis of Gender Identity? This is a social issue that has recently been a true question in my mind. I'm studying to be a social worker and in the long run I hope to be a marriage and family therapist. I introduced my career goals to give a background as to why I'm interested in researching this topic or better still to really take a look at whether struggles with gender identity is a crisis created within the mind, a disorder as a result of biological, environmental, or socially learned stressors, or if it is a matter of spiritual influence (oh no he's talking about spiritual stuff run run run!!!). The first part of this will be a description of what the DSM-IV describes as the diagnostic criteria for diagnosing a person with Gender Identity Disorder or a person who is experiencing a gender identity crisis.

DSM-IV-TR Diagnostic Criteria for Gender Identity Disorder:

•There must be evidence of a strong and persistent cross-gender identification.
•This cross-gender identification must not merely be a desire for any perceived cultural advantages of being the other sex.
•There must also be evidence of persistent discomfort about one's assigned sex or a sense of inappropriateness in the gender role of that sex.
•The individual must not have a concurrent physical intersex condition.
•There must be evidence of clinically significant distress or impairment in social, occupational, or other important areas of functioning .

•In adolescents and adults, the disturbance is manifested by symptoms such as a stated desire to be the other sex,
•Frequent passing as the other sex,
•Desire to live or be treated as the other sex,
•Or the conviction that he or she has the typical feelings and reactions of the other sex.

GID in Children
•In children, the disturbance is manifested by four or more of the following:
•Repeated desire to be, or insistence that he or she is, the other sex
•In boys, preference for cross-dressing or simulating female attire, in girls, insistence on wearing only stereotypical masculine clothing
•Strong and persistent preferences for cross-sex roles in make-believe play or persistent fantasies of being the other sex
•Intense desire to participate in the stereotypical games and pastimes of the other sex
•Strong preference for playmates of the other sex

Here is a breakdown of further diagnostic criteria as described by the DSM-IV:

•Preoccupation with the wish to live as a member of the opposite sex.
•Intense desire to adopt the social role of the other sex.
•Intense desire to acquire physical appearance of opposite sex through hormonal or surgical manipulation.
•In children and adolescents there maybe social isolation, peer teasing, and rejection.

•Adults with GID are uncomfortable being regarded by others as or functioning in society as a member of their designated sex.
•The sexual activity of these individuals with same-sex partners is generally constrained by the preference that their partners neither see nor touch their genitals.

From just reading a few of the diagnostic criteria you can only get a glimpse of what individuals who face this identity crisis have to endure. It is never easy in my opinion to not be comfortable with who you are, having low self-esteem, social isolation, ridicule, hatred, etc; I can't relate to not being comfortable with being born a male, as I identify myself, live as, and believe that I was meant to be a man, but I have dealt with a negative self-image, or low self-esteem, and I know that it isn't an easy thing to face, but I wonder what individuals who are dealing with a gender identity crisis, GID, or just not being comfortable with being born the gender nature assigned to them; what is it like for them, what are their true thoughts, what do they face everyday when they look at themselves in the mirror, and how can society truly gain an understanding of what they are facing? Before I enter anymore of my thoughts let me give you more on what the DSM-IV says about Gender Identity.

Associated Descriptive Features/Disorders:

•Social Isolation
•Ostracism
•Low self-esteem
•School aversion/dropping out
•Boys often show marked feminine mannerisms.
•Mental lives may revolve around activities that lessen gender distress.
•Some males with the disorder may engage in prostitution putting them at risk for HIV infection. •Suicide attempts and Substance-Related Disorders are commonly associated.
** The DSM-IV describes associated descriptive features/disorders section as including clinical features that are frequently associated with the disorder, but are not considered essential in making the diagnosis.

Children with GID may manifest coexisting:
•Separation Anxiety Disorder
•Generalized Anxiety Disorder
•Symptoms of Depression
Adolescents are at risk for:
•Suicidal Ideation/Attempts
•Depressive Symptoms may be present. Associated Personality Disorders are more common among males than among females.

Specifiers: Based on Sexual Orientation-

•Sexually Attracted to Males
•Sexually Attracted to Females
•Sexually Attracted to Both
•Sexually Attracted to Neither.
*Males with GID include considerable proportions with all four specifiers.
Virtually all females with GID will receive the same specifier - Sexually Attracted to Females- although there are exceptional cases involving females who are Sexually Attracted to Males.

(So if a person was diagnosed with Gender Identity Disorder one of these specifiers could be added on to the diagnosis. And example would be an individual who was diagnosed with Gender Identity Disorder who is sexually attracted to females).

Although I have all this information set before me, nothing within my readings have given an exact cause of gender identity. There are three theories that I've read about which are the biological theory, the social learning theory, and the cognitive-development theory. The biological theory gives a more detailed look into the cause of Gender Identity Disorder, the latter two theories speak more to an individual learning gender roles through social and environmental observation, and thoughts/understanding of gender over time. So here is where my question that is within my title comes from. What is gender identity confusion? Is it a psychological disorder? Is it a gender identity crisis that occurs when something biological goes wrong during conception or birth? Is it gender confusion that results from socially learned behavior? Is it a combination of physical/spiritual influence? I don't have the answers, but I will in my next post on Gender Identity Disorder, talk about what I think and feel. I want everyone who will read the next post to understand that it will be purely an opinion piece. I'm hoping not to offend anyone in either of these posts, but to open up dialogue and intellectual discussion.

Here is the link to the video from YouTube about the 20/20 special on GID.

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=Utpam0IGYac

Please watch and tell me what you think.

Reference-

American Psychological Association. (2000). DSM-IV-TR: Diagnostic statistical manual of mental disorders (Revised 4th Ed.). Washington, D.C.: American Psychological Press, Inc.

I've been watching MTV's The Real World faithfully since The Real World Austin. I used to watch it when nothing else was on when they were in New Orleans, but back in the beginning I wasn't allowed to watch MTV or was it that we didn't have cable? I can't remember, but the fact is I really really began to watch The Real World when they were in Austin which happens to be one of my favorite and Hollywood being my second favorite. I wish The Real World seasons were longer and I even wished that they would add like a random housemate to add even more drama to the current season right in the middle lol. Well now let's get down to business:

Real Talk-

I think that this season of Real World will be interesting. I watched the first episode and realized like all of reality television, the Real World had to add a transgendered individual into the cast. I realize how that last sentence may sound and I'm by no means upset or angry Katelynn is on the show, but it just amazes me how television is. First America's Next Top Model did it, then I Want To Work For Diddy, and now the Real World. Like 2008-2009 is the first time the world has ever seen or heard of transgendered individuals. I'm upset that this supposedly diverse (ha) show has suddenly realized that transgendered individuals are in the world. My anger which maybe unfounded, what are these TV producers/shows motives behind this. Is it just for ratings? For money? Or are they genuinely trying to expose the world to the issues, oppression, lifestyle choices, etc; that LGBT community face from day to day. TV just cracks me up, but I can appreciate Katelynn's bravery for being on the show and exposing her life to the entire world. As a matter of fact I appreciate all the Real Worlders who have been on the show and exposed their lives, whether it was real, scripted, or just so they could get some sort of celebrity status; I thank you for the entertainment.

I really thank those individuals who have come on the show and exposed their faults, their issues with racism, issues with their struggles with their faith and wanting to fit in, to the Real World virgins who wanted to save themselves for marriage or the right one, for the people that were REAL!!! I thank you.

I'm kind of upset that I didn't start this blog when Austin started because I had a lot to say, but now is a better time than ever.

The Cast-

Chet Cannon- I haven't had a chance to really see what Chet is all about, but I think that he needs to stop wearing those tight jeans lol. He seems serious about his Mormon faith and values, and I can appreciate him hanging on to his values, but not isolating himself from the group. So far I haven't seen him as being judgemental, but I think he should stay away from the house gossip.

Ryan Conklin- I just think him and his guitar are funny. I don't have to much to say about him.

Katelynn Cusanelli- In school I did a group report on Gender Identity Disorder and I'm really interested in researching the cause of Gender Identity Disorder (I do understand that most transgendered individuals do not identify their situation as being a disorder. I also do not put that label on them, but I do want to discover the cause or the origin of it.) Children have been diagnosed with GID and I watched a special on 20/20 about children who were confused about their gender. I'm interested in watching the show and seeing Katelynn's reaction to her cast mates feelings of her being a transgendered individual. I like what she said in the show that she wanted people to she her for her and not as a label.

Scott Herman- I don't have much to say about Scott except he better not hook up with Devyn lol.

Sarah Rice- I think she said she used to be a lesbian... Anyway she seems cool and she wants to be an art therapist; and I believe she said she wants to specialize in working with children who have been sexually abused. I hope she reaches her goals and that she truly builds who skills, especially since the abuse of children is on the rise and it is truly sad that people are hurting children. For the moment I see her as the only person who is really trying to get to know her cast mates.

Devyn Simone- She hasn't said too much yet, but I know she is sexy lol. Hopefully we will hear more from her as the show progresses. (or see more of her lol j/k).

Baya Voce- She wants to dance so dance on.

Well that's my take on the new season of the Real World. Leave me some comments telling me what you think about the New Season and the cast.

I hope in the future of Real World that we get more Christians on the show, a french woman, someone who is a nudist (a real one lol), and someone who causes complete mayhem on the show.

That's Real Talk About The Real World: Brooklyn

So a new year is upon us and I'm preparing for my last 5 months of school. I've been in school since pre-kindergarten; I'm so ready to be done. I'll have my Master's degree and then it's time for me to enter into the work force. I'm so excited about ending this long scholastic journey I've been on. It is time to work, travel, date, and relax. That's what I want to do and God willing I'm going to do just that.

So this isn't the reason I'm writing this So... post, instead I want to ask the question to you guys of whether or not you believe in soul mates? I mean do you really think that it is possible that someone out there was made just for you? I mean the notion that someone was created just for you and you were created just for them sounds crazy doesn't it? I do think that there is someone for almost anyone, but you have to get out there and find them; I just don't think that someone is out there made exactly for me. I could be wrong, but I'll say that if there is such a thing as a soul mate I hope I haven't dated them and messed it up, then what will I do?

So you tell me bloggers and readers: Do you think there is such a thing as a soul mate?