Joe's Celibacy Journal- Nothing New To Report

Entry 15-

As the title suggest I honestly have nothing new to report. I'm still celibate and contrary to my own popular belief, I'm OK with it.

I'm actually enjoying not feeling guilty. I mean I'm not having sex outside of marriage and I'm not guilty. The guilt wasn't or isn't the main reason why I've decided to walk in celibacy, but it played a major part in the decision. I just got tired of saying I was living for God, but behind closed doors I was pleasing my flesh.

Don't get me wrong I still struggle with the lust, especially the lust of the eyes. I also have a hard time gaining control of my secret thoughts. Much prayer is needed for me.

Honestly besides the carnal pleasure, the intimacy is what I miss the most. (Won't get into that to deep).

I was reading in a book by Myles Monroe called Single, Married, Separated, and Life After Divorce and one of the things he said was, "If an unmarried lifestyle is not for you (I'm paraphrasing) then you should ask God to prepare you for marriage. You must be single first, single meaning a whole, separate, and unique being with your own opinions and who makes their own decisions. You are ready for marriage when you don't need to be married to make you a WHOLE person."

I know the single lifestyle is not what I want to choose for the rest of my life, but I know I need it to first focus completely on GOD first, second I still need to work on becoming a whole, separate, and unique person, thirdly I need to understand GOD's plan for my single life and also His plan for marriage.

I pray I will stay strong in my decision to be celibate and I pray that if you read this you will make the decision to live for Christ in heart, mind, body, and soul.

Get to know Christ.

And keep me in prayer... Celibacy...