So...

So right now at this minute I am unable to sleep. There are so many reasons for this irritating, depressing, and upsetting insomnia I have right now, but I can't really share it. All I can say is that I'm very frustrated, angry, a mix of confusion, the need for distance, a need for answers, questioning, mind spinning in circles, and there is nothing I can do about it!!! And that's just it!!! I hate feeling so powerless or feeling like I'm so censored or can't really speak my mind about the way I feel. I don't understand how this works and it is becoming a very destructive inner pain for me.

They say to look at the bright side, but when you spend all your time in your head like I do; it becomes difficult to find a bright side. I feel so lost sometimes and yet I find myself unable to comprehend what is going on.

So...

1 comments:

Thoughts of Chalisse said...

Eventhough this was a quick post. This is really speaking to me. Good insight and truth on how your mind gets you to thinking till the point you cant sleep, you cant smile, or whatever else. Like!