So it has been so long since I have blogged. I'm surprised blogger world that they haven't deleted my blog and made room for someone else. I honestly can say that I have been truly busy, but honestly not doing anything. I mean just working and trying to improve as an employee, but that has been my only goal. I have so much to blog about and so much to get done, but honestly I don't want to be on a computer, I don't want to write, I don't want to type, think, or post. So why am I doing it now? I don't have a clue why. I just felt like I needed to really journal though. It has been a long time since I felt the need to really write randomly to relieve the stress I feel. I'm so hurt and confused; hurting is an understatement and the funny thing is the bulk of this hurt is caused by the things I have brought on myself.
I have turned away from God and lost my way. Yeah I've been going to church and I've been helping others, but my relationship; the approach, the romance, and the relationship with God has been so absence, He could truly say that he has been in this relationship all by Himself. I love God blogger family and I believe with all my heart that Jesus Christ died for my sins, but I have been so distant from God that He must be singing Jill Scott's "I'm Lonely Whenever Your Around" and wishing that I would just spend some time talking to Him. I want to spend time with you God, but I can't find the motivation. I have to keep telling myself that I know I love God, but I'm so lazy. That's the root of the entire problem; no blogging, no prayer, no reading the Word, no Studying the Word, no taking the time out to fall in love with Christ; simply because I'm lazy.
My heart is betraying me and it doesn't care. Doesn't it understand that I have to protect myself. Doesn't it understand that although my exterior is tough and confident, it is still mended only by the scotch tape of denial and inwardly repressed anger. But it laughs at my attempts to ignore what I'm feeling what I'm feeling and deep down I'm loving it. I just wish the heart was logical and protected itself just a little better. I guess the heart wants what the heart wants.
So even after just a little bit of journal writingI'm feeling a little bit better. I know that I need to start being more consistent with prayer and spending time with God. I know I need to spread the word of God to everyone out there. And I know that I have to get jwriter together.
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Joseph is a Licensed Graduate Social Worker in the Washington, DC area. Joseph is the author of the forthcoming book “Love Me Right or Not at All”, A Quick Guide to Loving Yourself and Others the Healthy Way. This book seeks to assist everyone who reads it to love with balance and give love to the right people. Joseph is striving to become an expert in the practice of relationship empowerment. He strives to build healthy, powerful, and well-balanced relationships in the lives of everyone who seeks after the knowledge, values, and skills Joseph has honed over the last ten years. Joseph is an aspiring Marriage and Family Therapist, but to also travel around the nation and hopefully the world, to spread the message that relationships can be simple, yet amazing if you put in the work. Relationships are vital to the human experience and often shape our mindsets, our personalities, and our environments. Knowing this, Joseph works to encourage not only those who believe in his skills, but also works passionately to build his knowledge and skills in the area of relationships to present the best of who he is both personally and professionally.
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