I Never
Sometimes I think I’m cursed. No really I do. I’ve never been too successful in the relationship department. I think I’m a pretty decent guy and I treat women with respect, but I just can’t catch a break and most times I end up having to start all over again. Please tell me I jwriter am the only person in the world that hates starting over again. I can tell you right now that it isn’t fun at all. Shoot and all the emotional investment you put into a person is starting to get taxing. I honestly have to ask myself when I will get a return on my investment. Or why did I make her just right for the next man? (Ok, so the last statement was probably a little grandiose, but readers I do feel like I just made it easy for the next one).
Sometimes I just feel like…should I say this out loud? Well I don’t really care I’m blogging and I can say what I want. Sometimes I just feel like I was meant to be single and please don’t think I am being self-absorbed or melancholic; I may feel this way, but God willing this isn’t the destiny for my life. I’ve seen a few of my close family members have failure, after failure, after failure when it comes to relationships; and honestly my track record has not been that good either. No I don’t cheat or beat on women or nothing like that. And no I’m not perfect either, I definitely have my faults, but I can’t pinpoint what it is.
Listen, I’m not hating on my friends who have been in relationships for years or are now happily married, but come on. And I certainly understand the sayings that everything that glitters isn’t gold, or the grass is always greener on the other side, but don’t tell me that everything about being married is a bad idea or you’re so unhappy, or you wish you were still single, or all the other make me feel better sayings you think will help. I know that marriage takes works, relationships aren’t always easy/fun, “you just don’t know what we go through or went through to get here,” yeah I know all that to be true, but at the base of it all you have someone to wake up next or to hold at night. Shoot I don’t do a lot of complaining on this subject, but it get lonely sometimes.
I really can’t stand you married people who take your marriage for granted. Yes I said it you self-indulgent, selfish, undeserving so and so’s. Always complaining, always saying how you wish you were still single, blah, blah, blah, and never satisfied. You make my stomach cringe and you just are never satisfied. If you can get past the superficial wall of narcissism and get over the pretentious attitude you have about your marriage, maybe you can enjoy it. Some of us are waiting in line to be happily married and you waste yours on adulterous living or complaining all the time. You ungrateful swine, you really disgust me. LOL I sound so bitter LOL…I’m really not, but I do hate seeing marriages end and divorce is so ugly.
I pray that my family and I aren’t cursed with the curse of continued fail relationships and one day I will find the one who will bring me one of my hearts desires. Like I said starting over sucks!
(From inside the head of jwriter aka Joe Snider. Visit my blog, join, subscribe, email, comment, and help me become famous at joe4christ.blogspot.com)
I Never
Joseph is a Licensed Graduate Social Worker in the Washington, DC area. Joseph is the author of the forthcoming book “Love Me Right or Not at All”, A Quick Guide to Loving Yourself and Others the Healthy Way. This book seeks to assist everyone who reads it to love with balance and give love to the right people. Joseph is striving to become an expert in the practice of relationship empowerment. He strives to build healthy, powerful, and well-balanced relationships in the lives of everyone who seeks after the knowledge, values, and skills Joseph has honed over the last ten years. Joseph is an aspiring Marriage and Family Therapist, but to also travel around the nation and hopefully the world, to spread the message that relationships can be simple, yet amazing if you put in the work. Relationships are vital to the human experience and often shape our mindsets, our personalities, and our environments. Knowing this, Joseph works to encourage not only those who believe in his skills, but also works passionately to build his knowledge and skills in the area of relationships to present the best of who he is both personally and professionally.
1 comments:
I feel you on this one. Starting over isn't fun at all 'cause you have to start from the bare beginning. But think of the good points: fresh start, no past, no errors, just a brand new slate on which to start creating all over again.
And I wish you could believe as easily as I do for your romantic future. I don't believe God would put such a deep desire for something He created inside of you...and not fulfill it. Lean back and trust Him with it.
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