Dating PTSD (11/05/2008)- The Approach

It happens almost everyday.

I get on the train, either listening to my ipod, or reading my Bible. I get on the train and I make eye contact; electrifying, mind-blowing, you-know-you-both-want-to-say-something-to-each-other eye contact, but one of us end up breaking off the transaction. We return to our regularly scheduled programs.

She's not the same every time. Today she was this pretty brown skin young lady, who happened to have a beautiful smile. Yesterday she was this pretty Spanish young woman with long flowing black hair. Last week she was this pretty blonde with bright blue eyes who was reading a book.
Different, but the same thing happens. I get on the train, we make eye contact, I smile, she smiles, but then that's it.

I'm not a shy person, nor am I a guy who lacks confidence in myself, but I never been one to approach a stranger in the way-guys-in-movies-or-in-real-life-are-able-to-just-walk-up-to-a-woman-with-the-purpose-of-asking-them-out-or-for-their-number. I've done it before, but only twice in my life. The rest of the time has been me getting to know them first, them asking me for my number, or over the email or written note. (Those tend to be my favorite).

But today I was upset and really wished I would have spoken up and said hi like I normally do. Today though I let her get off at her stop and watched her go by.

I can't explain it, but I know I needed to blog about it.

Does anyone else ever get dating ptsd when it comes to the approach?

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