Entry 10-
OK so I need to be honest about some things. I've been more unhappy with being celibate than happy about being celibate.I've relapsed into some old habits of visual and physical self-gratification (email me if you need me to spell it out for you)I've been wanting to quit being celibate so that I can do what I want...seeing as though everybody else in the world seems to be able to do what they want.I'm tired of all the responsibility and I just want to cut loose.(THIS ALL HAS HAPPENED WITHIN A MONTH)So I'm back trying to fix my life and start back again. I'm back in church from my two week break... being away from church has played a major role in my lack of defenses against my flesh, mind, and the devil. I've also identified that I need to put GOD FIRST!!! I need to really get into my Bible and read it. I also really need to surround myself around people who will encourage me in my state of celibacy and I need to continue to build up my defense: No Zane books or TV shows. (That new Sex Chronicles TV show on Cinemax is dangerous...don't watch it it will have you messed up), of course stay away from pornography in all forms even down to the movies that can be sexually explicit. Stop looking at women with my lustful eyes (oh this is my greatest downfall), watch my mouth and conversations (even dirty talk over text messaging). Finally I need to stay prayed up and keep my eyes fixed towards living a life pleasing in the eyes of my Lord and Savior Jesus Christ.I'm happy I've made the decision to be celibate and to work on not pleasing my flesh or compromising at all to fulfill my need for sexual gratification in other ways. If you know Christ and you know how to pray please keep me lifted up.
"I rather live my life believing there is a God and find out it isn't one, then to live my life not believing in God and find out He was real," Anonymous
Joe's Celibacy Journal- Time To Be Honest
Joseph is a Licensed Graduate Social Worker in the Washington, DC area. Joseph is the author of the forthcoming book “Love Me Right or Not at All”, A Quick Guide to Loving Yourself and Others the Healthy Way. This book seeks to assist everyone who reads it to love with balance and give love to the right people. Joseph is striving to become an expert in the practice of relationship empowerment. He strives to build healthy, powerful, and well-balanced relationships in the lives of everyone who seeks after the knowledge, values, and skills Joseph has honed over the last ten years. Joseph is an aspiring Marriage and Family Therapist, but to also travel around the nation and hopefully the world, to spread the message that relationships can be simple, yet amazing if you put in the work. Relationships are vital to the human experience and often shape our mindsets, our personalities, and our environments. Knowing this, Joseph works to encourage not only those who believe in his skills, but also works passionately to build his knowledge and skills in the area of relationships to present the best of who he is both personally and professionally.
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