So if you didn't know my So...posts are like my online journal where I vent about random things. Today though I'm going to truly vent about how I feel. Right now to be honest I'm not feeling very good about myself. One thing I've learned about myself is that I know how to throw a pity party very well, the interesting thing is that I don't need anyone to come to this party; really I can enjoy this party all by myself. The other interesting thing is that I hate pity parties and I really hate feeling sorry for myself. But the truth of the matter is that I do and I can't shake it. I mean I know it is really bad because my thoughts about things are really negative and I haven't showered in two days...well right before I started this blogpost I took a much needed shower. I know I will get over this, but right now it is important for me to experience this and work through it, rather than pretending like everything is OK.
I'm just in a rut about my career and financial situation. I've worked so hard to better myself and no matter what obstacle I seem to overcome another one is thrown my way. And I realize and recognize that I'm blessed and someone else is always worse off. Believe me readers I understand that principle and fact very well, but sometimes your emotions and your thoughts don't care what others are going through and you have to literally fight with your emotions to keep them from overwhelming you. (I hate the words overwhelmed, overwhelming, overwhelm so much right now LOL) I'm just really tired of being dependent on others and I want my own. I know that God moves on His own time and I need to be patient, but I feel that I have been and honestly sitting in the house all day is starting to drive my a little crazy. I just hate sitting still for too long of a time and I know that I begin to trip when my mind is idle.
These last few days have been rough on me and I just want to truly make something of myself. I do have something to prove and I want to be successful. I know talk is cheap, but honestly I've been out there trying to make my dreams come true. Again I know I have to overcome this and get over feeling sorry for myself. I just hope that God can hear my plea and see my tears. I know I don't deserve it, but God I'm in need of it. I can't sit and do nothing anymore. It is tearing me apart and I need some redemption, a lift, a boost, and deliverance.
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Joseph is a Licensed Graduate Social Worker in the Washington, DC area. Joseph is the author of the forthcoming book “Love Me Right or Not at All”, A Quick Guide to Loving Yourself and Others the Healthy Way. This book seeks to assist everyone who reads it to love with balance and give love to the right people. Joseph is striving to become an expert in the practice of relationship empowerment. He strives to build healthy, powerful, and well-balanced relationships in the lives of everyone who seeks after the knowledge, values, and skills Joseph has honed over the last ten years. Joseph is an aspiring Marriage and Family Therapist, but to also travel around the nation and hopefully the world, to spread the message that relationships can be simple, yet amazing if you put in the work. Relationships are vital to the human experience and often shape our mindsets, our personalities, and our environments. Knowing this, Joseph works to encourage not only those who believe in his skills, but also works passionately to build his knowledge and skills in the area of relationships to present the best of who he is both personally and professionally.
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